Nothing profound to say, no great revelation, no clear direction... and yet...I KNOW He's here.
You know... there's 'good naked' and 'bad naked'. I can't help but remember the Seinfeld episode about "bad naked". Sometimes the fig leaf just seems like it needs to be a WHOLE lot bigger...
There's certain 'soul nakedness' I have grown used to. I don't mind sharing stuff as long as someone asks me, and I'm being honest. I also don't mind going first. Sometimes this kind of naked is followed by UNDERstanding or a flow of of mutual honesty. This is GOOD naked, in my opinion.
Bad naked? Coming with nothing. Being honest about NOT having a plan NOT knowing what to say, NOT having direction. It's like a 'less than' spiritual place. My flesh really hates it.
I've grown to a place where if I have nothing...I don't feel the freedom to just 'fill in the blanks"...with SOMEthing... but I don't think I've been mature E-NOUGH to realize in the moment that this is actually a GOD-thing, (or at least a good thing that's just in disguise for a while) and to not feel bad about it.
Just writing about it... bad naked. Well, unless you understand or would like to be honest back.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
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Tuesday, January 19, 2010
Show me Your glory!
When I read through John 17 this morning, it was like something wouldn’t settle from the very first moment I began reading the chapter. This is one of my FAVORITE chapters in the Bible, with SO much in it that usually speaks DEEPLY to me….but today…nothing was sinking in. Over and over again… the first verse kept churning in my spirit…
Jesus spoke these words, lifted up His eyes to heaven and said, “Father the hour has come. Glorify Your Son, that Your Son also may glorify You,” John 17:1
Jesus was GOD praying to His Father to GLORIFY HIM. This was a ‘prayer request’!! Now, I GET, seriously, the NEED to wait for His glory to be revealed until the proper time. Over and over, when Jesus did miracles, He told people to NOT go tell everyone because it WASN’T time yet for His glory to be revealed.
BUT…what has had me thinking….is that Jesus, aka…GOD… PRAYED for His glory to NOW be revealed. Glory wasn’t (this is in PENCIL, in the margin…ok??) and isn’t about identity and/or timing.
It’s an answer to prayer to those like Moses and Jesus who will ask for it. One man didn’t seem to have the right to ask for such a thing, and the other didn’t seem to NEED to ask for such a thing. And yet, they both asked.
...that Your Son also may glorify You,”
The second part of asking for God to reveal His glory is getting to be an INSTRUMENT of glorification. When we SEE Him, He can use us to SHOW HIM OFF! That’s pretty much all I want out of this life. To see Him, and to bring Him glory. And there it is… all in one little prayer.
Jesus spoke these words, lifted up His eyes to heaven and said, “Father the hour has come. Glorify Your Son, that Your Son also may glorify You,” John 17:1
Jesus was GOD praying to His Father to GLORIFY HIM. This was a ‘prayer request’!! Now, I GET, seriously, the NEED to wait for His glory to be revealed until the proper time. Over and over, when Jesus did miracles, He told people to NOT go tell everyone because it WASN’T time yet for His glory to be revealed.
BUT…what has had me thinking….is that Jesus, aka…GOD… PRAYED for His glory to NOW be revealed. Glory wasn’t (this is in PENCIL, in the margin…ok??) and isn’t about identity and/or timing.
It’s an answer to prayer to those like Moses and Jesus who will ask for it. One man didn’t seem to have the right to ask for such a thing, and the other didn’t seem to NEED to ask for such a thing. And yet, they both asked.
...that Your Son also may glorify You,”
The second part of asking for God to reveal His glory is getting to be an INSTRUMENT of glorification. When we SEE Him, He can use us to SHOW HIM OFF! That’s pretty much all I want out of this life. To see Him, and to bring Him glory. And there it is… all in one little prayer.
Tuesday, January 12, 2010
Tanzania... here I come!!!???
Part of what I think this blog is about... is nakedness. Nakedness clothed. When I write, I love to HAVE something to write about first, TIME to write, and PASSION in me about what I am going to write about.
Well... I don't have time to think, I don't have time to edit, but what I CAN tell you is that I have a PASSION burning in me to GO SOMEWHERE!!!!!!!
I have had 2 dreams of traveling to Thailand in the past month, and then last night, I was on my way to Tanzania. In one of the Thailand dreams, I was already THERE, and one I was at the GATE without baggage. Last night, I was leaving the next day for Tanzania, but again... without my bags packed.
On Sunday, we were encouraged to fill out a passport application...just to be ready. Everything in the natural screams... WE DON"T HAVE THE MONEY FOR THIS!!! MY KIDS ARE YOUNG!!!... HOW IS THIS GOING TO HAPPEN??? But... the passion still remains...
I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE!!!
SO there you have it... my latest post, RAW, UN-cut, UN-tidy, UN-covered.
Well... I don't have time to think, I don't have time to edit, but what I CAN tell you is that I have a PASSION burning in me to GO SOMEWHERE!!!!!!!
I have had 2 dreams of traveling to Thailand in the past month, and then last night, I was on my way to Tanzania. In one of the Thailand dreams, I was already THERE, and one I was at the GATE without baggage. Last night, I was leaving the next day for Tanzania, but again... without my bags packed.
On Sunday, we were encouraged to fill out a passport application...just to be ready. Everything in the natural screams... WE DON"T HAVE THE MONEY FOR THIS!!! MY KIDS ARE YOUNG!!!... HOW IS THIS GOING TO HAPPEN??? But... the passion still remains...
I WANT TO GO SOMEWHERE!!!
SO there you have it... my latest post, RAW, UN-cut, UN-tidy, UN-covered.
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